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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  Thank you Moster for those words of warning. She has left our congregation not to come back so I hear. The funny thing is she said she will never talk to me or my wife again. In other words she is shunning us because according to her I don't like Christian's. Which is not true. So you are right by her actions and thinking she is unstable and we plan on avoiding her. Still Totally ADD
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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  steve2 you have no idea how much I controlled myself. I was raised in a household were attack and annihilate was the norm. Then they would say "will it's the truth". It's hard habit to kick but leaving the borg has really helped. Thank you for your kind comments. Still Totally ADD
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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  I feel the same way PE but my wife gets angry with me if I use the F word. Thanks for your thoughts.

  Mcfree good information on gas lighting. I never knew this. More knowledge for my Brain.

  Punk that is how I felt but in my new life out of the cult I am working very hard at taking the high road. It really sucks to be kind sometimes. Thanks
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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  1010 I appreciate the encouragement. Her anger really surprise me because just minutes earlier we was talking and laughing with each other. I think she thought by attacking me this way I would fight back instead I apologize. All she could do was get even more angery.

  JayK how right you are. The abusers keep going on and the abuse are left in shambles.

  Confusedalot so sorry you had to go through so much hurt. You to stay strong and keep finding the strength you need so you can have peace in your life. Let's all make the scar's of our pass abuse's a point we can look back that makes us stronger. Thank you for your experience.

  Side not to the rest of the story. She had her name taken off our membership. I do hope she can find some peace in her life. Still Totally ADD
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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  Thank you LisaRose for your kind comments.

  Steve2 thank you also. No it was not a JWs group. I belong to a Unitarian Universalist congregation. I enjoy the friendships I have with this group. Most there come out of other religions that they did not agree with. Most do not believe in God or have a belief in God or something spiritual but does not like organize religion. I fit in like a glove. They have given us a lot of support in coming out of a cult. No crosses, any religious emblems or praying. Every UU congregation is different some very Christian all the way to atheist and everything in between. Still Totally ADD
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  Past child abuse comes to bit me in the butt

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  here i am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person i have always wanted to be.

  but what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days.

  i am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.. here's what happen.

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  Here I am 63 years old, out of the cult going on 8 years, went through a year of therapy back in 2007, been working very hard to become the person I have always wanted to be. But what happen to me a few days ago just blew me out of the water for the past two days. I am now finally coming to grips with my emotions and understanding what caused me such distress.

  Here's what happen. We was having a congregation forum where everyone can share how we can better serve the congregation in being more inviting. A member raised her hand and started to verbally attack me about how I feel about Christian religion and how Christians are those who teach love and should not be criticized for their actions. After she was done I looked at her and apologize for hurting her feelings. This just made her more furious at me. Again I try to explain how negative my background was and I am working hard on this problem. She said she wants nothing to do with me and she feels like she is being persecuted for being a Christian. Other members chime in and defended my position. My wonderful wife spoke out in my behalf and I think at that point this lady pop a cork. The forum ended shortly after and I went up to her and sincerely apologize to her again and said I wish she had come to me and talk about how she felt. She said you expect me . to come up to a big person like you and talk. Then she turned away from me.

  A friend of mine called her later that day and talk to her. My friend brought out she is furious with everyone in our congregation for not coming to her defense. Also she told my friend that my past Abuse's as a child I most likely made it worse than it was and my case was likely a very isolated case and not that bad. She felt I have been overstating the abuse that is taking place in the Wt. and there are probably no abuse taking place at all.

  She was minimizing what I have gone through and minimizing what all others have gone through in this corrupt organization. You might as will have stick a knife in my heart. I was devastated and feeling totally worthless. I could not understand why I was feeling so bad! After all I thought I have worked through all this. But another dear friend called and talk to me about what happen. After expressing how I felt she said something that open my mind to why I feel that way. By saying how she understands how someone who is publicly put down like I was would be hurt. Suddenly a light came on in my brain. I guess I never dealt with this abuse before. My first 4 years in school my teachers would on a daily basis make fun of me in front of the whole class on how horrible I was for not saluting the flag. One even would even try to force me to put my hand over my heart.

  I now understand how those old feelings have surfaced to make me feel bad. I told my wife maybe I should write a letter to this women and thank her for helping me to understand my deep buried feelings caused by her. I went through sexual, violent attack by my abuser, verbal and spiritual abuse. And it was the verbal abuse that came back to bit me in the butt this last weekend. For all who are survivor's of abuse my heart goes out to all of you. From one who is also a survivor and working hard to be a better person. Take care and have peaceful thoughts. Still Totally ADD
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  Crazy statements from JWTalk

  by Jehovah lol in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm sure many of you are aware of the jwtalk site, a message board which has yet to succumb to apostasy (give it time).. some of the forums there are visible to the public, and i've seen some crazy stuff.

  here is a sampling:.

  "satan is really trying his best to make things worst for the witnesses, knowing the 6,000 years is almost up, from eve's creation!".

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  Good insight on your observations. It brought to my mind how turmoils in the world effects the thinking of this US made cult. Think about the 1975 teaching. 6,000 years since creation of Adam, Vietnam war raging, cold war with the then Soviet Union, antiwar protests, scandal in the white House, drug's, free sex thinking, man landing on the moon, equal rights for Africa Americans, women's rights, gay rights, crime and on and on.

  This is all the on going struggle of the human race. This makes many feel helpless and many turn to religion hoping the God they worship will fix it. This may sound like crazy talk to us but to them this may will be the only way they can cope with life. Still Totally ADD
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  What’s The Strangest Belief of Jehovah’s Witnesses?

  by minimus in

  1. jw
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  there’s a lot.

  i think one strange view is how only 144000 go to heaven.

  since the number is mentioned in the symbolic book of revelation, you would expect that the number would be viewed as figurative, but jws say otherwise.

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  Armageddon will be so bad that blood will be up to the bridal of a horse. After Armageddon the brids will have a great feast the scouts will be sent out to mark where the bones of dead people are so others can buried them. The insane teachings of the joy you will experience if you survive Armageddon. Still Totally ADD
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  The end of an era ......

  by snare&racket in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i have written some time ago, about how the religion i grew up in no longer exists.

  i was an 80’s jw kid who became a pioneer then a bethelite.

  they have new meetings, new elder roles, new acronyms, new core teachings, new songs and even a new bible.

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  How right you are snare&racket about how much it has changed in the last few years. Born in 1954 I remember how I was told I would never go to school and then when I started I was told I would never graduate from high school. I graduated. Then when we had our first child in 1977 I was told he would never go to school then he did and he graduated. In 1982 the same thing was told about our youngest son and he graduated. Now with our grandchildren we have one who in the next few years will graduate.

  I am now 63 years old been married for almost 44 years. I am now looking forward to graduating from life in the future. The big lie told to me as a child that I would not grow old and die was a false hope indeed. Yet the propaganda machine of the Wt. keeps going on. They may look different now but they are still destroying lifes in their wake. Still Totally ADD
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  The Judge on Trial: Uncovering the Real J F Rutherford [Part 1]

  by pomo6780 in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  enough rhetoric for now, here is my promised first part to my series.. for the benefit of lurkers, i'm using mainly wt publications as my research to show this information isn't 'apostate'.

  part 1: association with russell and the bible students.

  i want to ask an honest question.

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  Back in the early 1970's we had a old brother named Harry Campbell. He use to talk about Rutherford all the time. He knew him very will. He claims he help develop the soundcars. He would talk about driving these soundcars all over the place. He would laugh about waking people up in the morning with the loud sounds coming out of the speakers. Harry was in his mid 80's when I knew him and this experience was the highlight of his life. He never said anything bad about Rutherford except he did not like the ending of using soundcars.

  Back in the 70's I knew a lot of the old timers that Russell and Rutherford real well. Most were positive about Russell but very negative about Rutherford. Still Totally ADD